Gosh I don't know if it's the season because it's terribly cold out and cloudy all the time that it has been effecting me or it's just me. Who knows. I just feel so hopeless and helpless lately. Have had a hard time sleeping. And then on Friday I found out that my PDoc is leaving where I go to in a month and a male Pdoc is coming in to replace her and he will be there only one day per week so it is going to be a lot harder to get in to see him. Then, two days ago I started cutting myself I was in a Mental Hospital 6 months ago and that was the last time that I cut myself. I just feel like I am out of control. I'm trying to work on disability appeal, trying to go to college but my concentration is all out of whack. I been really struggling lately I just feel like my body is breaking down and I can't control anything. I been trying to think of things that I "like to do or enjoy" but I dont know what I enjoy anymore it's like I don't know myself anymore. Anyone got any input or anything?
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