Yeah me too. But I need my freedom too much to go in the hospital.

It would only be for a short time Ireland.

i am going to have my husband come home, he goes out every night lately and i think it is so we don't argue over my depression. but i can't sit here alone anymore. i'll be on later or tomorrow.
thanks, i'll be ok even if i am miserable right now.

well that went really well
i get screamed at because i am depressed all the time wonderful

I got goose bumps reading your post. Lately that sums up how exactly what I feel. Hang in there, it helps me to find something important to me that grounds me. Most of the time its my little sister. Somedays I just can't though, and thats when the real struggle takes place, but when I manage to make it through another night it gives me the slightest push to try again the next night.

You'l probably want me to hit me for saying this...but exercise makes a difference if you want to feel better.

Kudos! I totally agree with that too, I hate doing it but I always feel better after.

yeah, I wish I had a personal trainer to kick my butt when I lose motivation..it's the best thing.

hi i am back if anyone is here. i don't want to hit anyone lol i did ask for suggestions and exercise is a great one. i need to push myself harder to do it. i almost lost it tonite and the only reason i am still here is i called my dad and he stayed on the phone til i calmed down, i'm freaking 27 and i still bother my dad.

you and I are simular creatures.i feel like that ALL the time.

Don't you know daughters never bother their dads. Be a little nice to yourself. Go one moment at a time. Your moment of good thought starts with::::Thank God you have your dad to talk to!! I never knew mine.

i know i am so lucky to have him, i lost my mom at a young age and he stepped up and became super-parent even thru his grief.
i so badly want to feel normal again, i am doing all i can, waiting for my new med to work with my new diagnosis...my husband completely went off on me tonite, he can't deal with it anymore blah blah blah well that didn't make me want to stick around this place. he said some awful things to me and it hurt so bad, kicked me when i was down and that is not like him. i won't even speak to him right now and that's why i had to call dad.

I don't know your situation at home but I am guessing your husband is probably scared and upset because he doesn't know what to do. We are hard people to live with when we are struggling. Think it over before you say too much to him. Good Luck. You know you can home here to talk also.

the thing is, i am a very rational, level-headed person, and i def. realize that this has been tough on him. but he is not easy to deal with at times either, and i give 110% to help him and to discuss problems calmly. he is upset b/c he thinks we don't have much of a relationship anymore, even though i have tried to explain to him that i am severely depressed and i just can't enjoy things mugh right now. i just found out 5 days ago that i am BP and that was hard news to swallow, and he hasn't even said anything about it...but i hear him on the phone with friends talking them thru their problems that they usually create themselves, and he doesn't get sick of them. i have been "hiding" my depression as much as i can, forcing myself to go out with him eve though i feel like hell, letting him go out whenever he wants to, and i just can't understand why he would be so hurtful. i am a very giving person, and sometimes i think i give too much.

What i hear you saying is that you are not taking care of yourself to start with and then he isn't either. Let me think on this and I'll get back to you.