Last night for the first time by boyfriend saw a manic episode of mine....It was a bad one, I yelled at him told him to move back to where he came from, that he doesn't care about me, doesn't care to learn about how to help me....And I threw him out...He was gone for a few hours, came back and passed out on the couch. I thought he would have wanted to talk when he got home. I would have been more satisfied with him yelling at me if nothing else. Had he actually been doing what I have been begging him to do, educate himself on my problems and learn to deal with them we wouldn't be where we are right now.... Which is, me in the bedroom asking strangers for help on the internet and him in the living room completely ignoring me. I sent him text messages last night while he was gone, apologizing up and down, explaining to him this was a manic episode....He said it was going to be ok, that we'd figure it out... I even emailed him some more explanations. He never came to bed, slept on the couch, I woke up a few hours ago and he completely ignored me, I didn't say anything cause I don't know what to say or how to act. He as usual hasn't once come to see if I was ok.....I could have been hanging from a rope since last night in here and he wouldn't have known the difference. He didn't come into the bedroom when he got home last night and didn't once come in here after he woke up this morning. Fuck him! I'm here trying to do whatever I can to help him understand all of this and he is so unwilling and uncaring I feel like it's all a waste of time! I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to talk to him anymore, I have nothing more to say, I've explained to him what needs to be done if he has any concern in helping me and making our relationship stronger and he just ignores the situation. Just like any other problem we have....Please, someone help! What do I do?????
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