I've made a huge mistake. But I'm so confused and I feel so lost. I haven't taken my medication because I believed God was going to heal me. Now, I'm slipping away from reality and grasping at straws to hang on. This is insanity, doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. Every stinkin time I give up the meds I end up in the hospital. Is it folly to believe that God can and will heal me of this affliction? Am I deluding myself? I have schizoaffective disorder and every time I quit meds, I am immediately haunted by hallucinations and delusions. Now, I am doubting my faith, lost in this maddness, and ready to cry and scream. I can't do this anymore, guys. I want to give up so badly. Please help.
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