I'm in my worst depression since being diagnosed right now. I didn't leave the house for a week, I didn't shower, didn't do anything but cry and cry and eat and cry. Be glad you can get up. It helps ( has helped for the last 2 days). I wish you the best of luck. Maybe your Dr. could help educate your husband more about your illness.

honey everything has a beginning middle and an end - especially an ilness - any illness . you are living thru a cycle and it will take as long as it takes for you. you aint alone - we are here and some of us have just come up for air or are down in the blues for the first or 101st time. i say ... just give yourself permission to be unwell - seems to help me antd try not to react to hubby or others who expect you to ; snap out of it ' or that everything will get worse - you know you are healing and with understanding love and support you will ALL get thru this time.Be patient - meds take their time - think of the time required to mend a broken bone and how people have to take it easy in recovery - so do we who live with a different mental ability - like bipolar or depression. you will get there - journalling helps - so does DS keep on tuning in x JennieK in Australia

Hello...yes, it will get better but it gets better when it gets better and unfortunately that is never when we want it to, lol... god grant me patience right now... Try the little things, go to bed at the same time, get up at the same time, eat at the same time. That's what they tell you in the hospital. Be KIND to yourself. And rest. I say lots of hot baths and good chocolate and fuzzy pj's. hugs to you.

You may want to take your husband to some therapy sessions with you or alone. My hubby never had depression and didn't really know how to react. Therapy helped a lot.

I've had many bouts of depression and it will eventually get better. Sometimes its for a short time...sometimes a long time.

Work with your pdoc and be patient with your meds. I always gave my meds a month and if it didn't start helping I would talk to my doc.

Good luck...don't be hard on yourself. Sometimes we forget Bipolar is an illness. Just because you can't see it doesn't make it any less real.

I am so sorry for you! I agree with Halterbro... and JennieK. I'm in my own funk tonight too. Having a schedule can be a lifesaver. It has taken me through many days and nights of not being able to see ... Just complete emotional blindness. You are a lot stronger than you know. And your husband is not living in your shoes. I have been overwhelmed at the reaction of others towards me. They have absolutely no idea what this is like. They think it is like getting a sprained ankle... You can still act normal, say normal things, do normal things... They just don't see how debilitating it can be! My husband is NOT supportive at all, but he doesn't have bipolar and has no idea and no desire to get educated about it. I love him and he has the right to not choose to live in my world. There isn't a day I feel cheated of that support and one day he might be there for me... But he is my rock and I know that up or down he will consistently be the rock. I'm sorry your husband isn't being suportive. These things get better. That is the best part of this... You know at some point things get better. But remember what you do, who you are with, what they say... is not why you feel this way. You are having a chemical imbalance. Try to remember that ok. Love and Peace!

My husband is trying to be supportive. He has chronic depression, so he get's part of it. But his anger towards everything else is suddenly somehow because I am not being me. I don't know who me is anymore.

Thanks for letting me know it does get better. My husband and do need to get some better communication skills.

I am not used to life sucking like this. That is for sure.

Keep doing the little things and take whatever pride you can muster in doing them....

Sometimes just taking a shower can be a chore

Shower....chore?
Like brushing your teeth?
Like trying to make something to eat?
Like trying to answer the phone?
Like changing from your jammies into your reg. clothes?
Being BP is pretty damned exhausting.
Phew....like writing the above list......

See?

it aint just me... i got ready to say thank god, but since I am being PC let me say thank the unknown powers that be non denominational of course and it could be good or bad depending on you PC viewpoint and I don't want to be offensive ....

aww hell you get the picture

Some people physically can't move from their bed all day.