Hi guys I have not been on in a while but I need to get some things off my chest and vent. So here it goies. As you all know when we get into manic stages we feel invinceipal. Years ago 2003 to be exact I got a dui in ohio and never took care of it! I know stupid right but at the time in my manic state I said hey my consulting job is sending me to pa they will never get me and have been driving on a suspended drivers licesnce ever since. Needless to say after reading and talking to my therapist allot (I finally found one I like and is doing wonders for me!) More than medication! I decided to take a 30 day medical leave of absense turn myself in and go to jail for 6 days. Needless to say it was HELL! I had panic attacks the second I walked in suicidel thoughts. The would not help me. Would not let me see a doctor or a therapist and would not give me my medication! My dr. even call the jail him self and demanded them to give them to me. They never did. Either way I am out now and when I went to go to the dmv to get my license they said I had a block from pa for a ticket. Again in my manic state in 2004 I got a second dui again because of my consulting job they sent me to ky. I was working 12-14 hour days and never even thought about it. I now have to figure out what to do? Turn my self in and face prison time? or just never drive again. As long as I stay out of pa they can't arest me but I can't drive. But the thought of spending even just one hour in prison makes me want to kill myself. No dr, no medication the worst possible place for a bipolar person. I literally was punching myself in the face and having panic attacks so bad I passed out and they would not help me. I am so scared I don't know what to do. Sorry for such a long vent. Thank you all for listening please let me know what you all think. Oh and by the way in 2003 and 2004 I was on no medication not seeing a therapist and totaly denied I had this disease
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