I hate the way I'm feeling, so out of control. I'm 50 years old and my mother is driving me insane over the telephone and I'm only listening to her messages. I can't get myself calm enough to resolve her problems for the past 2 days. I can't get myself to even answer her calls, and she knows I'm home. I am yelling at my poor cats who seem to be in some sort of competition for my love today. I feel bad about it. I just gotta get it out of my system but I don't know how. I haven't felt this way in a while and I'm outta my damn ativan. Is there anything else that can calm me down. I try counting to 10 and it helps temporarily but then it all floods back into my brain.
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