It seems as if all I do is try . . .and try . . . and try harder. . . and try my best and I am still an emotional mess and my life a chaotic trainweck. I am so so worn out both emotionally and physically. Talking w/family and friends and trying to get them to understand(for emotional support) is always a disaster. It's so insulting when they say that my problem is that I don't think positive enough, "we all have problems", and to just deal with it. What the f*** do they think I've been doing for the past decade?!!! All the doctors, meds., therapy, eating right/ exercising and reading I've done on this . . . and they have the nerve to tell me to just deal w/it!!! I bet if they were to live in my shoes for only a week, then maybe they would want to put a bullet in their head. They have no clue what living w/bipolar is like. They think all I have to do is think positive, put a smile on my face, and tell the bad feelings to go away and it will disappear instantly. If that was the case, I'd have this under control years ago. That is why I isolate myself from people and the real world and I just hide in bed all day long. I can't take it anymore!!
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