My gramma is out of state and she is ona ventilator. Her lungs, heart and kidneys are failing. Family is there to decide if they want to give her a trach and feeding tube or to let her go. My sister and brohter droove the 7 hours to be there. I was debating taking a bus there but have decided going will do memore harm than good. I feel guilty and like a failure. THe sister that went also ha bipolar and she is more high functioning than me. I hate this disease! I know i have a lot more issues than sister does. She can make the trip and I cannot.
So as I've said before I've been diagnosed now for 5 years with Agoraphobic anxiety, I didn't leave my house for a total of 6 months straight when I was first diagnosed. Eventually it started getting easier to deal with and have been good for a year and a half with no bad attacks. Then this past Saturday I was riddled with anxiety all day while at work! Had a altercation with an employee that day...
my new narration job. I don't know if I can do it. The anxiety is too much. It won't go away, and it just keeps getting worse! I can't stop crying! I never cry! I can't eat. My stomach is in knots! how do people do this! I don't know what's worse, the anxiety, or the thought of quiting! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!