Yesterday I had finally had enough, When I met my husband 10 years ago I told him EVERYTHING about my past,warned him he was with a ticking time bomb of crazy and he decided he still wanted to marry me, I thought that was great, someone actually loved me for me warts and all. He knew how I felt about porn and what not as it was sexual related issues that created all my problems to begin with as my mom and dad would have us all sit and watch it together like it was a family movie when I was only 6 and my brother and sister were 16 and 17. He agreed to be sensitive with this matter and said he understood. Once he got me back to Ireland this sweet sensitive guy dissapeared and replaced with super shit head.... I had just given birth to his first daughter and we had only been married a year when he says he wants to have relations with the neighbour and that I could get with her boyfriend, he starts watching porn ALL the time and raunchy sexual inuendos all the time. I even caught him watching another bloke on web cam. We fought time and time again him swearing he will never do it again and me always finding out he lied, I tried to stay with him for the kids sake and because I am in a country were I know no one other then his family and I have no where to go.But he got drunk at a neighbours house and is looking at him like a love lost puppy, he has been drinking a lot this past month and this guy is a bad influence. And then I find MORE porn sites on the comp. So I texted him asking for a divorce, he came home yesterday and did not speak two words to me and he had hung up on me when I confronted him about the porn. He balmes ME because he is stupid...hmmmm.Thank God I am euphoric mood swing at the minute or I probably would have killed myself yesterday.
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