I am having a really hard time right now and can't believe what I'm seeing. This past week I have been so depressed and I can't get to therapist until Tue. My meds are being upped today, the guy in the office next door has been screaming at his employees all week and freaking me out. I'm on the verge of checking out or checking in. I'm trying to keep it together the best I can and it's been hard, very hard! I come here because I want to get help and just see and hear something good from others or to help others and then I see the dog post. I thought she was gone this morning so I tried flushing it down the board and now I find out it was a hoax, a fucking test? I have had too many people in my life fuck with me. How do I know who is real and who is posing on here now? I am afraid to befriend people now. This has put me over the top. Thank you to the person that thought this would be a great test. Way to fucking go. Are you happy? You have pushed me to the breaking point. Is this what you wanted? You wanted to see who your real friends were? Well I'm so glad I wasn't mean when I replied to your sicko post, because now I will remain on your friends list if I'm on it and that's just what I want is someone like you as a friend! Boy, I'm sooo fucking happy now! That's right I'm cursing and not being respectful, but I can't help it I'm FUCKING BIPOLAR!!! Isn't that what you will use for an excuse? I am the first to bitch about drama and I try not to create it, but I am now and I don't care. This has really got hold of me! Don't ever say your BP, it's an insult to us! I am so sick right now, WTF?
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