i have been crying for days.. i am in a terrible lupus flare i havent been this bad in yrs.i am barely able to walk. or move my fingers or limbs.my jounts and muscles are swollen and on fire .thats the best way i can decribe my pain to you.my spine is also in bad shape..and then thers my mind.. so messed up from this damn bp. why why i ask god but why not i guess. i just feel like i want to float in a warm pool of water in peace and quiet in no pain and sink to the bottom of the damn pool. i just cant handle this pain anymore .. its too much for one person to bear.i am tired of fighting.i am going to find my pool. hugs ..marie
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