To all of you here at DS I would like to extend my heart to all of you.
As I am a newbie,I have requested and received friends whom I would like to address first,because my journal entry for today is limited to friends. I feel I made a wise decision reaching out to as many pp as I could,without overdoing it ,for at present, I am suffering insomnia; a very dangerous trigger as we all know.I am going to be absent from you tonight, to regain my strength from lack of sleep, and emotional upset.
I am broken up over all the pp here suffering this hell of an illness.As a mother of three beautiful young adults, my heart especially breaks for the youngest among us.I would like to encourage them not to be frightened.Weakness builds strength and we are better able to persevere, when so sorely tested. The human spirit is an amazing force.
Please keep your dreams alive as they are not water bubbles.Dreams do come true.Please know that new developments are being made all the time,and education of the public is being addressed. Those infuriating med commercials that make me want to scream, are actually very helpful, even it it brings a shadow of insight .It is being publicized which is so vital to us.To all of you who are presently on the opposite pole, hang on.I was deeply depressed for 4 years trying countless ssri's that did me no service.I am presently taking emsam. A new maoi that is a transdermal patch.And it is working.I hope we can be as sensitive to each other as bp sufferers, as we wish those who do not suffer it, could be.Friends,please read my journal entry for today, if you feel up to it and have time. Thank you ever so much for reading this post.As i have been so nurtured this week by all of you, I hope I touched some ones heart with encouragement, hope . understanding,and love which I now offer up to all of you.Please keep in your thoughts most especially, those who are presently despairing.This is a serious illness, please do not beat yourselves up for it's ramifications.We deal with a power greater than our own,a sick brain.This is touchy but I'm going there anyway. If anyone has attempted suicide and failed, and feels guilt over it, please don't.
No one should judge anyone who lost hope in living.I was unsuccessful in a psychotic state from taking my own. If anyone,anywhere , at anytime, judges you; in one ear and out the other.I came to terms and you will too. i figure, my mind took flight into madness, yesterday is spent, ask me how I feel today,don't ask me how it went.My best to everyone.Until tomorrow, I extend abundant peace.
Love
Nectar.