HEY..you are not done.
that is the depression speaking! on top of that, it is depression fueled by a hangover!....you are not done, the booze will leave your system and things will seem much more clear. you know how to get better, you will succeed at your job, quit the fuckin drinking and work on getting better.
you are worth it, you will survive this shit.

Alcohol really ruined my life,esp. w/bipolar.
Sober up and you'll be able to handle life. I know it's hard, but not impossible. Make the decision that you seem to have made in the statement above. Get clean and move on to an enjoyable life. We'll be here for you.

wondering if new job stress made you relapse? I agree with others; alchohol obviously played a big part, and will need to be dealth with before you can move on. You need to find a way to cope with stress without it. Your pdoc and therapist can help you. There are other jobs out there; sounds like you weren't ready this time around.

Drinking is the worst thing in the world for depression. I know it helps at the time, but the lingering effects last longer than the initial high.
You are done, you are just at the bottom and need to look up and grab the hand people are extending here to help you out of the pit. Don't think I don't understand, I am right there with you right now but without the alcohol. But, i keep trying to remember how badly I would hurt the people who are actually there for me.

Stay strong and stay sober...
We are all here for you.

Sorry, I meant "You are NOT done". sorry.

DD,
What are you finished or done with? Alcohol or life? What part of life do you like the least and what do you like the most?
I'm having a crappy day too
But I'm reaching out to you.

Forgive yourself for having gotten drunk and missing work...but commit to not doing it yet again...you have the power...you decide...now brush yourself off and move forward...you CAN do this

i call it self-sabotage.
things were going great for you, new job, hope, promise.
your brain says..how dare you have happiness and success??
then you go out and ensure that your happiness and success will be short lived.

give yourself a break..you deserve the best, and tell that mean voice that says you dont deserve it to go to hell!

Hey Cabby,
Glad you're reaching out. Many of us keep falling down over and over again. We understand.
Have you been able to make AA meetings and meet people who might be able to support you while you go through this?
As an outsider here, just sharing what I see and it looks like the alcohol is the beast right now?
Please keep reaching out. You are worth happiness and stability.
Many hugs and best wishes!

Sounds like you are really in a deep depression and that you need to have your meds adjusted to lift you out of this deep dark hole. It is the depression talking and don't beat yourself up for drinking, that was just , in my opinion, you self medicating to try to cope. Hang in there because this too shall pass, it always does. It does.....
Alcholol is a depressant afterwards, did you know that?? So, it will just worsen what you are going through right now. You have so much going for you, if only you could just believe in yourself. Be kind to yourself and remind yourself that you are doing the best you can right now with the circumstances given now. Hang in there! You life hasn't even begun, its just not even started yet. Your life can get better than your dreams, reach out for it, fight for it...and give yourself a break. Sounds like you need one. Hugs to you...

unh, you have glorious intution

i n t u i t i o n

Cabby, I cant claim to know about the whole alcohol thing. But I do know how it feels to fall down again and again.... and the sleep thing. Ive said I was done alot. Once I was told by a friend, that as long as your heart is beating you are not Done you still have hope.. So dont give up! I know you have lots of friends here that will help you through this phase. So remind yourself just that its just another life phase, it will pass! Better Day!!

hey, do not beat yourself up!!! i have been hungover and had to call in before, and it sucked, but don't assign blame-just do beter tonite, so you can work tomorrow, and do something nice for yourself to feel better. i really hope you feel better and more relaxed soon. you'll get thru this. good luck :)

u r not done uless we say u r done. U r one of us. You have an illness. We can never give up. Fight fight fight. Fight for the treatment that can help you. it seems thaat alcohol is not the one. No judgement here just support. Yoou are not alone in this fight. You are in my foxhole.