I am afraid and I am I am afraid of everything and that is why I am as tuff as I am because the only place that I feel safe is in my bed and that is the truth. I don't want to drive not because I can't but because so many other people can't. I don't want to leave my house because I am affraid that I may get hie by a car in the parking lot at wal-mart(may we all bow down to the wal-mart goods) I am afraid to eat chicken because I y get salmanilla. I don't eat pork because I got sick off of it one time. I am afraid to get my hair cut because on time my uncle got his ear cut with the sisors. I can not go to the bathroom with the door closed all the way because I am afraid of getting locked in with out no way out. I have to waite until the light turns green and I see to other traffic before I cross the street and I have to make sure that the cars in cross traffic see me before I cross and my greates fear of all is that I will die old and have to watch my great grandma die before me she is 70 years old and she raised me I could not ever imagine her being gone and I have tried before to think of life with out her in the past few months and I can no do it I am so scared to think about it because I am so totaly full heatrtedly sure that once she goes I will die of a brocken hear of starvation because I am so afraid of suicied attempts going bad I would rather suffer from sumthing that I could sleep though and die in peace because she is no longer with me. The only other thing that makes me so afraid is that one day my girl will tell me that she does not need me anymore. I am so afriad of all that is out in the world I looked at the prospect of this website for about two weeks before I signed up because I was afraid that I would be different and I was not and that was the grates thing in the world for me and now my bf is pissed off at me and I am afraid that I will loose him.
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