I feel pretty good today. I started out with my usual "don't give a shit" mood but it got better. I watched some televangelists today and it improved my mood but not to where I was really happy. Then I decided to primp.....god knows how long it's been since I've done my hair. Anyhow I decided to try a different hair style and do my makeup different. That really elevated my self esteem. I'm so used to going around looking like crap and when I fixed myself up I felt better. The thing I don't get is I don't have the hypomanic symptoms. I am happy and cheerful, drove around singing in the car but no racing thoughts, grandiosity, no creativity, not hyped up etc...I'm just happy. My pdoc isn't for sure if I'm even bipolar at this point because my heart is jacked up. I know that I suffer from extreme low self esteem, social anxiety, depression and all the ADD symptoms. The problem is I crash on ADD meds. When they wear off I"m almost in tears about how miserable and depressed I am. Everyone has told me that's a sign of bipolar disorder. You all have experienced hypomania or mania...what's your opinion about my good mood?
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