So He is going into a manic episode again. Some of them are exciting (the one where he wants to go out dancing every night, the one where we go and take off on vacation somewhere impulsive), but this one sucks. Its his perfection episode. He wants me perfect, and the kids perfect and the house perfect and I know that yo have to take the good with the bad, but I can only run so many hours a day, and our four kids are walking on eggshells. This morning out 12 year old son was eating his breakfast over the sink, just in case he spilled. And the fights are insane! He can make feel worthless in 2 seconds flat! This episode is a very rare one, and I just needed to vent. He is a loving, kind man who provides well for us, but I just want to hide until its over!
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