I have these mood swings all the time . Its like I can't control myself. What does anyone do to help prevent these things until u get better. I am so afraid my marriage is over and no one will want to b w/me cause I am too much to handle. I mean my husband has already given up on me after 3 years. And we never had problems until I got sick. Now he is tired of me breakimg up with him and getting back together. I have been doing this for a yr.So Jon and I went to the doc today. It sucked. She said she would work with us even though she doesn't do therapy. Well she said that we both talk and dont listen. She said that we need to c her everyweek amd work on our relationship. It has only been bad cause Of my mood swings. So we promised her that we would work on our marriage and not give up. So we leave and he wants food so we go and I get mad I ask him r u really going to do this. And I keep naggin him. Then I tell him I don't think this is going to work out and I am done. I told him to take me back to my car. Then we started arguing. He said this is the shit I am talling about. U always get mad and want to break up with me. Why can't I just b normal? I can't help it. Its like subconsiously I want to break up with him and I don'[t know why. I tthink I resent him , for not being there for me. I love him so much. And I am pushing him away. And it hurts so much to know that I am losing the best thing that has ever happened to me.So I called him later and asked if he is going to work on this with the doc and he says I dont know . I am afraid of u dumping me again. I can't take being hurt anymore. And he also thinks that we might do all this and not get anywhere. He doesn't believe in docs either. He doesn't really believe the bipolar thing. Which I think is going to be hard if he isn't openminded. He thinks that its just me being a bitch. And I think that is how we r having such a conflict. He says he understands but he doesn't believe that all my actions r do to being bipolar. He said he is tired of arguing and so am I. But its like whenever I am around him I want to be mad at him.
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