We'd be millionaires if we did.
Tell doc as soon as you can. Im sure he can tweak your meds to make you feel better.

are you in some kind of counseling?

sleep! talk to someone who actually loves you.

I wish I knew what to tell you. If medication isn't working, have you tried other kinds? I hope you get some good answers.

Practice somewhat of meditation. Try to tell yourself a positive thought for every negative or fearful thought. It trains your subconcious to be able to recall the positives when you need them.

Sleep and benadryl have alwasy worked in a emergency for me

I recently went through a time of massive mania that lasted weeks! I thought my meds had stopped working, forever.
Wrong! Sometimes excessive stress can trigger depression or mania, and it passes, and your meds start doing their job, again.
mine did. hope yours start working like you need them to.

no counseling..just meds that obviously aren't working

I can't promise to stop them but maybe lessen them a little with a few simple life changes. Good sleep, even when you are manic, try and maintain a healthy sleep schedule. Nutricious food, eat 5-6 smaller meals a day it will keep your insulin more level. Drink 8-10 glasses of water daily, it's easy to become hypoglycemic and dehydrated when manic as the desire to eat and drink is impaired. Finally exercise, especially when you are depressed to get those feeling good brain chemicals circulating. Take your meds as prescribed don't take more or less without advice from your pdoc