If im depressed at the time i try my best to hide it even though im not good at it. If im pissed off and getting into a rage it depends who im around and weither or not i'll let it out and scream and yell. Usually i only do that at home. If im feeling good i let it be know.

I don't know about you, but it takes an incredible amount of effort for me to act normally around others...I have BP mania, and I am constantly triggered by others into rage. I look forwrd to when I can be alone, and be myself.

I find that it's easier to pass for normal if I just keep my mouth shut. Beyond that, I try to schedule my crises for weekends when I can take my tranquilizers without affecting my work.

I for the most part feel ashamed of my weakness of bipolar. It's very hard for me to come out of my shell. Find people specifically who understands.

good point, i have no idea, but your right.
hugs
Bett

I think we know what kind of behavior is acceptable in public and we fake it during the day when we are around others, That's why I think we are very strong people. It takes a lot of energy and self control to act like we are feeling good when we are not. I have a couple friends that know about my illness now and all I suffered and they can't understand how I faked it all those yrs. we just have to.

i wish i knew , but its gettin harder for me xx

I'm not real good at acting normal. I'm pretty much the way I am all the time. I try not to go out when I'm havin' a real bad day, which are most of my days.

I spent 25 years passing for normal. Depression I could hide, rage I could not. I got tired of it. Now I don't work and it is better.

I'm a pretty good actor. I've been doing it my whole life. Sometimes, though, usually when unmedicated, I slip into those uncontrollable bouts of rage and having a borderline personality on top of Bipolar I doesn't work out too well for me. It's been a long time since I slipped into one of those rages, though. Thank God for psychotropic drugs!

OH and whiskey and marijuana, of course, although I haven't had either in AGES...like, a whole month! They keep me from going over the edge at night when I fall into a depression or manic state.