Sometimes when I go to therapy I feel worse after! So I cancelled my session this week and p-doc. I have been doing pretty good and hoping to make it until Friday, because weekends are usually good for me because I am with people. I also think I cancelled because the t-doc was going to send a report or letter or something to p-doc, because he felt I needed different or additional meds. Also said that I do not talk enough and she does not know all she needs to know about me. It has taken me over a year to tell him all that goes on in my head and I still have not told all he needs to know. I know I do this, but I just lock up when I get in there. We have tried writing, but when I get there I am so embarrased and tense that I can't talk about what I wrote. Then I leave and feel horrible! So now I'm just like, "The hell with it! I'm better off not going to him or p-doc. I'll just get my scripts refilled!" Anyone, advice or can identify?
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