I was recently diagnosed with bipolar and put on Trileptal. I hate meds and they scare me anyways. Right now I'm an emotional wreck from coming off Cymbalta, which has me even more concerned about still taking Trileptal. I have been so different since I have started taking Trileptal. I don't even seem like myself anymore. Everything is so boring. I realize nothing excites me like it use to. I use to be the most energetic outgoing person. Now I have no motivation and everthing is so BLAH. No mood cycling like before..Whoo Hoo.lol. I miss the ups so much..and my downs weren't very bad..not like now. How do I get use to this boring world, when I loved how I made everything exciting before. Plus I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, and now that is gone. It isn't like I didn't know what I was doing. I jus don't know how I am suppose to stay on these meds, symptoms gone..WORSE DEPRESSION I've ever been in during my life.
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