Hello everyone, want to ask a question. my mother went into the hospital this afternoon with problems breathing(she is battling lung cancer). I cant sleep, yet i dont feel anyting, my emotions are missing. Yet i am full of piss and vinger. I just recently droped my abilify but still taking the my other meds. The Ambien is not working tonight either. I have also taken a few strong drinks in my search for sleep and feeling something. I dont want to show up at the hospital in front of my family looking like and feeling like i dont care about her. I reckon it makes me a horrible person. I just dont get it anymore. Sorry to vent on you guys. But if you can offer any advice i would like to hear it.I am to the point of just stopping my meds once and for all. And go back to meding with Burbon full time, its cheaper and has worked in the past , when i did not have the meds.
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