Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
It's hindered everything else.I can't wait to sort it out and move on.
I would agree with you lou2 that DS keeps it on my mind and so do the trillion therapy apts i must attend to deal with my moodiness and not to take it out on everyone else.
Personally though I have a tendency to stay home, which probably doesnt help matters so I do not expose my issues to others. Those who do not know me think it is a part of my identity "the bitch" those who know I have BP knows it will pass. I HATE IT!
I cannot help but obsess over it.
I stay to myself more and more, especially since my kids are finding their own ways in life, and don't need or want mom's advice right now (which is one of the things DS does to give me an outlet so I don't go completely NUTZ....sorry for all the motherly advice!!)
But also, I just can't handle people's "observations" of me anymore...like friends that tell me I'm "needy"....yeah, duh, but you don't know WHY that is, do you?
Or the one I heard recently from a couple of mutual friends, that there's got to be SOME job I could do....and one of them from a homemaker whose two kids are grown and gone now....ummmm....look in the mirror, lady.
But I hate myself when I get ugly and rude, and I can do that really well. So I'd rather stay in here with my cats and go downtown by myself once in a while.
I guess I think about it most, when I contemplate the future, and wonder if my kids will want me in their lives again, ever. That is about all that really matters to me. The rest of the world can suck eggs. Except my DS friends, of course.
but lately, with the therapy five days a week and seeing the doctor at least once a week, it's been on my mind almost constantly.
Truthfully, when I'm not an outpaitent or on here, it's not a big issue for me.