Today is 21st day of my Quetiapine. I am still feeling 2 drowsy hours after taking morning dose. This week until now, I am feeling happier than usual, there are less thought in my mind, only a bit anxiety and paranoia on people. For the first time I can convince myself on matter rather than being worried about past action, present situation and future plan etc. and can avoid the thought arise in my mind. Only thing is that when I have free time I lay down on bed and start to dream my future. I will go overseas, find a good job, pursue a degree, marry "that" girl, return to homeland and help mentally challenged people. etc etc like continuous slide show. "Fool! Don't count your chicken before they hatched" Ya, I am counting my chicken before they hatched, this in not enough my story is more funny than that, I have no egg. Who will fulfill my dream? "God!" One day he will send an angel to help me, if I am a theist. How many Bipolars see the dream like me? Is it a part of mania or hypomania? Have I other disorder too? As I know I am dreamy like this much since my childhood in the best or normal mood. I had a dream to be a scientist and have achieved first class first academic marks. But from my teenage, achievement stopped only dream is running in the screen of my mind. Anyway after 7 years treatment of psychotic depression and 9 months of Bipolar Disorder, I found a match of medicine. Now, if I am not feeling hypomania, Quetiapine + Lithium are the best medicine for me. I am teaching computer classes and rocking with Bob Marley's Get up Stand up.
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