i have been with my boyfriend for about a year now, we live together in his apartment. he has stuck by me through all of my ups and downs but i still feel it is time for me to leave. im scared to death. in the past he has kicked me out probably half a dozen times, ruined things i have that are important to me (as i have also done to him) and we had a physical fight once. im afraid to tell him i want to leave and i have applied for an apartment already and everything. i dont want to just leave when hes not home or tell him over the phone but i am so afraid of his reaction and what he might do to me or my stuff. i also dont want to let go of him, i am scared of being alone on my own. i do love him and care for him a lot but i just dont think that there is enough there anymore for me to stay. i know that there will be no chance for us to stay friends because he is going to be so angry and think that i am doing him so wrong. there isnt anyone else or anything like that. i also dont want to tell him until im ready to move because he will probably try to throw me out again with nowhere to go. am i as wrong as i feel for keeping this a secret? am i wrong for trying to leave? i need someone to talk to about this!!
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