Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

AliWest
Over the past five years, I've done so much that I regret. To the point where my own self-hatred is eating away at my brain. When I get depressed I can't stop thinking about the things I said that were stupid, the places I went, the people I upset, the disrespect and the embarassment of my manic episodes. How do you get over the guilt? I try to do better things everyday and make smarter decisions, but I still am who I am which is a direspectful and horrible person. I hate myself and I'm crawling out of my skin. Ever feel like that?
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I just asked my best friend the other day,"how do you forgive yourself and get over stuff?"She didnt really have an answer.
I obviously dont have that answer either and I wish I did.
I do attend therapy,It helps a bit,talking helps if you can muster it.
Good luck
All I can say is you have to keep trying and take the blows to your esteem.I found after a while that people's memory may not be as sharp as you think.They will say " Forget it " after a while.
If they have some respect for you and your battling illness, they will forgive you.Sometimes I had to apologise over and over till they realised that the illness blights our every move sometimes.
There were times I couldn't even remember what I had done.That's terrifying.
The strength that you will experience later may sweetly surprise you too.I cried out of guilt for feeling BETTER at one point.
Also, the friends and family will seek YOUR forgiveness at times when they realise, on occasion, that they have let YOU down.
You don't have to believe me.
It's just what happened to me when I least expected it.
I literally beat myself.
I discussed this with my Pdoc,rage is a powerful tool of hatred against ourselves...Pdoc has me do mental excersises ,about the GOOD I"ve done....and he changed my meds!
i also do a lot of volunteer work with different organizations... it does help...
Whenver I feel like I've done wrong (and I've done a lot of wrong) which is really to say that I am not my ideal person, I look at how far I've come from where I was. If that doesn't work, I just remember what one tdoc said to me, "how many orphanges have you bombed today?" And that puts my actions into perspective.