My fiance has ended our two year relationship after a nasty 3 month breakdown in my ability to not assalt her with irrational paniced and needy behavior. I was diagnosed last week but it is too late for her. I try and explain that I cant seem to stop the ridiculous fears and statments I make. I'ts like watching myself from behind fogged glass. I have accused her of everything under the sun and I can know in the next instant I dont realy believe it. The panic rat keeps running though my head and I only sem to make it worse for her. I need her now more than ever but that need is only pushing her away. I have to move out, she gave me one week,start treatment and a new job this week. My friend and lover cant stand me and I cant seem to explain that this crazy person I have been is not me!
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