sorry for your lose. I can tell you its not easy right now but time will help. take care

I feel asking for help right in this moment, shows that u want help, and thats good, call for an appointment to TALK to someone!!!! Really IMPORTANT!!! Your body , mind, and soul needs replenishing ,,and you deserve to give that to you.....Breathe,,in and out,,,and then call....you will let it out,,,you could grieve if u could.....i am there for you,,,Marisa

I am so sorry. Sometimes I think when we kill ourselves it may be the right for us-at least at that time. I know I have wanted to so many times, but haven't. My biological father did. I don't know why; he wasn't in my life. My mother, step-father, and 2 brothers died fairly young. But it wasn't till my son was killed that I gave up any will to live. Support groups have helped me-just to be able to talk about him. Some pain never heals-even with time. If that is a picture of your little girl,turn to her. I have another son to keep me alive; but I know I will never be happy again, or at least not an untainted happiness. Not very uplifting I know, but this is my chance to let it all hang out. When I was a young girl and still a church goer my preacher told a story that I never forgot: a preacher tried to talk a man from jumping off a bridge. After hours of talking the peacher was finally able to take the man by the hand. Then they both jumped off the bridge. I'm not sure what I am getting at. We are all suffers on this site. We offer our hands; but that may not be as helpfull as it should. peace to you.

try eating small meals several times a day..you HAVE to keep food in your system or everything shuts down and your metabolism is ruined,.as a former anorexic i understand.

please get some advice from someone. you need to see someone soon, i know its not easy but with the right hep eventually it should start to ease, keep talking please dont give up.

im so sorry you lost your brother. I hope you get the help you need. hugs to you.

My girlfriend's cousin killed herself last winter. She was like a sister to her and needless to say, the whole family was crushed. I lost my dad 2 years ago. When I first heard, I thought he killed himself. He was an alcoholic and very depresses (probably bi-polar). Though sad, I was relieved to learn he died of a heart attack.
With my dad, though I missed him, realized he was in a better place. He was miserable here. I firmly believe in something beyound this existence, but something that religion has no clue as to what it is about nor why. But, I also believe that when you die, you look back on "life" and realize that, even though it sucked at times, it is something you miss and wish you would have appreciated. It's a thing that you would wish you could go back and experience again, but this time take advantage of your talents and opportunities instead of squandering them like last time. So, I say why not do that now. Do it before we leave this world since we know that we will wish that we would have done things differently.
That's easy to say from the vantage point of looking at life from the outside. When we are knee deep in it, it sucks, it's complicated, and retareded it's a little more difficult to see the forest from the trees.
I think about this shit all the time, yet it never made it any easier to cope. That's why I sought counseling. He helped me see my dilemma, referred me to a doc to get meds to stabilize my mind which in turn will let me live the life I think should be lived.
Still waiting- 4 more weeks to see the doc for meds, but very optomistic.
Excuse my "temporary" home remedy, but marijuana helped me alot during hard times. It elevates mood, increases appetite, and calms the mind. I don't want to condone drug use nor offend anyone, but if you have no other option in the interim it might save your life.

Very sorry for your loss. There's a pretty support group for family & friends affected by suicide on this site FYI.

Theresa,

You are in a very dangerous place right now. You are overwhelmed and justly so. Your brother did not realize the pain he has left you with and I am more than sure he would want you to go on.

The best advice I can give you is to get to an e.r. and let them at least get some fluids into you. Are you still taking your daily meds? Please pick up the phone and reach out to someone. Once you get some help with your nutritional needs you will begin to feel better physically. The rest will come with time and professional help. Please go to the doctor or the e.r.

Thanx!,everybody,So much
I am afraid to go to the E.R.
because they dont know how to treat my RSD symptoms there
they ALWAYS make my PAIN SO MUCH WORSE:( I AM SO EXTREMELY SENSITIVE TO TOUCH RIGHT NOW!,ANY TOUCH:( they r not gentle enough at most hospitals:(

that is Me in this pic,by the way@just 2yrs.old,when Life was Fun and Simpler:(

Try to get some fluids in you at home. Start with something like Pedilite. It has the electo's that you need right now. Small sips throughout the day. Progress to broth and then to pudding or jello and then to more solid foods. You have to try and drink. Take Care. I have been thinking of you alot today.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can tell you I feel the same way ever since my dad choked to death. Your not alone or without people here that care for you unconditionally. I don;t know if time really helps like everyone says but I do know you will come to realize you must live on for your brother so that others may learn. I'm here too for you if you want to talk.

my sister was born Oct 7, the night b4 my 5th birthday. We celebrated every birthday in Style. She died just b4 turning 39, of cancer. It is horrible & I shall always miss her. But I am continuing on, believing we will meet again in Heaven. People who kill themselves are in such a dark place, they are not thinking when they do it, it's like an automatic reaction to deep pain. Stay with us & know that many others have experienced this same trauma. A support group would help you.