I go through feelings of "everythings gonna be okay" to feelings of misery and depression all in the same 10 minutes. I self-medicate with alcohol and drugs, which is a temporary relief, but afterwards the problems are still there. When i try to sleep at night I cannot, my mind will not stop racing, about things I have to do, things I am ashamed of Ive done, things i cant do anything about. I hold a steady job, but do not find any of the activities I used to like, unappealing. To me it sounds like depression but sometimes, I feel okay like everything is gonna be alright. I also have a hard time concentrating on one thing such as, if im watching TV i can concentrate, but during commercials im back to the depressive thoughts and anxiety, can anyone give me some advice?
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