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Last week i did something stupid, thoughtless and cruel. After my partner went to work i got all my stuff together and left him. I don't know why, although i was a bit manic, we didn't even have an argument, things have been going so well between us.
I know it was a horrid thing to do, i didnt call him, text him just left him to come home from work and find me gone. I got a load of messages on my phone pleading with me to tell him what hed done wrong, that id broken his heart etc.
So he found me at my friends house and i got in his car and we talked. He was angry and quite rightfully - i couldn't even explain myself and he doesn't know i'm ill. Even if he did he wouldn't understand.
He came out with some really nasty things:
- I need to pull myself together, because i act like i'm the only one whos ever been through shit.
- I'm a dirty slag (i know he said that just to upset me)
- I need to get over the fact my grandads dying because its a reality, people die, and im making a big thing out of it.
- I've just used him so i can get over my own issues
- He can't believe he let someone as fucked up as me around his daughter, and that i hadn't just abandoned him, ive abandoned her (that really hurt)
and lots of other things.
Were back together now, and i'm glad hes forgiven me and its all sorted but i just can't forget these things... and i'm ment to be able to tell him i'm mentally ill????? i dont know what to do anymore....
I know it was a horrid thing to do, i didnt call him, text him just left him to come home from work and find me gone. I got a load of messages on my phone pleading with me to tell him what hed done wrong, that id broken his heart etc.
So he found me at my friends house and i got in his car and we talked. He was angry and quite rightfully - i couldn't even explain myself and he doesn't know i'm ill. Even if he did he wouldn't understand.
He came out with some really nasty things:
- I need to pull myself together, because i act like i'm the only one whos ever been through shit.
- I'm a dirty slag (i know he said that just to upset me)
- I need to get over the fact my grandads dying because its a reality, people die, and im making a big thing out of it.
- I've just used him so i can get over my own issues
- He can't believe he let someone as fucked up as me around his daughter, and that i hadn't just abandoned him, ive abandoned her (that really hurt)
and lots of other things.
Were back together now, and i'm glad hes forgiven me and its all sorted but i just can't forget these things... and i'm ment to be able to tell him i'm mentally ill????? i dont know what to do anymore....
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You need to tell him about your illness. Maybe have him come to the pdoc with you for an explanation of the disorder if you're not able to express yourself.
You may need to have a 'plan' for the next time you feel like escaping. Call a friend/family member to stop you from being so rash. When our minds tell us to do something, generally we follow along unless we recognize the danger zone we're heading into. See your pdoc and your tdoc to let them know what you did. You may need a med adjustment.
peace, t
By putting it that way it sets them up to either be a very obvious jerk in which case the relationship is wrong, or to realize he can be your 'hero' and do the right thing. Not telling him is like living a life based off a lie and at the very least says you dont trust him enough to share that part of you that is most personal. Of cource you dont spit this out on a first date but I get the feeling your far past that... and its that time he will either chose to love who you are to the full extent or just be a harmful trigger in your life...
I hope he does the right thing and love you for you... bust wishes and big huggs