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How can I stop pushing the people I love away

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I have a problem with my Bp that causes me to push people that I love out of my life. I feel a lot like I just want to be alone, yet, that is the worst thing for me because I am lost without my friends and family. I have learned to love my mother in a whole new way, but I am now pushing away my boyfriend and I don't know why. I am so irritable and I know that I need to stop making every conversation into an endless argument, but I can't seem to stop.

My boyfriend (who I've been with for a long time) says that I've changed int he last six months, and I don't even remember what I used to be, but I want to go back to being it, because I was doing better then, and I had more healthy friendships.

If anyone can help me it would mean the difference between me losing my love and losing my self, please, anything will help at this point.
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This is something that I struggle with as well... I feel that no one understands me, so I push them a way to "prove to them" that I don't need anyone, and then end up with no one... I don't know much about your situation, are you in therapy? Are you taking your meds? More info Please! LOL
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I used to be the same way. I seemed to test the ones I love to see if they would stay. If things have changed in the last 6 months, maybe you need a new evaluation by your pdoc. Maybe an adjustment to your meds? There are other things you can do too - go to DBSA meetings, exercise, meditation, all kinds of things to take your mind away from the pressure you're putting on loved ones. My 'pushing people away' stopped a few years ago. I'm more concious of the words I say and the actions I take. Hang in there, you can make a change back to your old self with some help from your mental health team.
peace, teresa
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I am taking my meds. I take 10 mg of celexa, 40mg of concerta, and I take 100mg of Seroquel a day before bed, but I find that it isn't as effective with controlling my mood swings as it was when I was taking it during the day. I was taking 25mg 4 times daily and it made me a total zombie which sometimes resulted increased irritability but for the most part it was better than nothing, but it was making it impossible for me to drive and be attentive at school so my doctor told me to take all at once at night time. I am going to go back to therapy because I obviously need it, and I am going to hopefully have my medications reviewed as soon as possible but I often feel like my doctor doesn't know a lot about my medications and maybe there is someone I can go to that would be better suited to help me find the right medications.
tommymott
tommymott
I found that dealing with the anger and resulting shutting people out was pretty well minimized by a combination of meds and journaling/applying positive attitudes. Therapy would help, too. But mostly I think it was the meds.
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