How can I make a friend, I need one so badly, but Im so "scared" of even leaving my house,,I try soooooooo hard to but just cant,, or if I do get down the street,, I get all messed up,,paranoid and need to come home,, back to my safe spot,,I hear freaky voices sometimes,, and they sound so real,,I'm afraid of them,, there not nice,,their voice is growly,,they say demeaning and belittling things,,would be so nice to have a friend to talk to,, the ultimate would be to have a friend to hold me when Im scared,,GOD, that would help so much,,,,but I know a miracle isnt gonna happen,, and a friend fall into my house,,Need strength and advice on how to fight all the fears so I can find someone,,,,,Any suggestions??
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