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Hospitalization?

deleted_user
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It seems like most people here have been in the hospital at least once. I know my Bipolar is getting worse and I have a fear of ending up in the hospital.
There have always been 'incidents' but the most recent one, the words 'paranoid' and 'delusional' are too close for comfort and it has scared the heck out of me.
I don't hear voices. The only hallucinations are waking dreams where at night I don't realize I'm still asleep when I'm walking and talking to people. I've been through several psychs and am told bipolar or schizo affective or BPD. They've been telling me I'm sick but I wouldn't really believe it. I figured Bipolar no biggie, except that that's turning out to be an understatement.
I should also say that my dad had a stroke and the risperdol caused strokelike symptoms so I'm
not willing to take anything but fish oil, DBT and therapy if I could actually get some.

So have you been hospitalized?
Do you mind describing the incident which caused you to end up there?


Thank you!!
deleted_user
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Yes too many times... One I was so far gone I laughed at the paramedic and said HAHA I took the meds so long ago you can't pump my stomach and its too late and sang your too late hadeehaha etc... I ended up in ICU then I checked myself out then was taken in again and took 6 people to hold me down!!

Damn it sounds like I am happy about this and I am braggi g... its more like I know how and what to do and take....

Oh I hate thinking about this.... I need to leave.. be back later
deleted_user
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I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you sad. That helped quite a bit so thank you for sharing.
((hug))
deleted_user
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see i've never done that i'm jealous. it sounds so freeing. i know i should'nt and i wont. but still freeing. my husband would never let me go. he feels he should take care of me. it would be nice to get away. i bet he doesnt want to be embarressed
Tizzy
Tizzy
Sometimes I think it would be great to be hospitalized... Too be sick enough to not try to do everything. Just to let a nurse or whatever take care of me and drug me up and let me watch cable all day like when I had Mono or Pneumonia. I don't think I would feel good about it afterwards but right now with how exhausted I feel at fighting and pretending it would be nice to just stop and chill.
deleted_user
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I did a partial hospitalization. I had to be at the center from 8:30-3:00 every day and it was helpful, but glad I wasn't there full time. If that is an option for you, I would recommend it, especially if you have family at home who can monitor you off hours.
deleted_user
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For a period of 5 years, I was in the hospital 2 times a year. I referred to them as "my vacation". It was nice to get away from the world and let it take care of itself without me. LOL. I haven't gone for a vacation in about 4 yrs.
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I agree with you, Tizzy, I have wanted to hospitalize myself several times, but I can't just leave my kids in the lurch like that, not to mention my job...
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I have been hospitalized 3 times this year with depression and in a different place each time. Every place is so different, some limit tv, some limit phone time, some limit visiting hrs, some have constant groups, I'm starting feel like an expert, but at the sametime there is a stigma about always having the cops show up at your door to take you away. The whole apartment building knows i have mental problems and they look out for me, but I was embarrased.
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I had gone out of work due to anxiety and depression. Then I became suicidal. I've attempted suicide in the past but wanted to try something different so I went to the psychiatric er. Only spent the night there and they wouldn't give me the drugs I wanted so I put up quite a fuss. I was also hospitalized for about 1 1/2 weeks for the initial rounds of ECT. The rest were out patient.
peace, t
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I sometimes wished I was bad enough to be hospitalized. When I was first diagnosed I was very high functioning. I would tell people about my illnesses and they wouldn't believe me. They thought I was just trying to get out of doing things. I got kicked out of church because of it.
deleted_user
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Thanks so much for the responses!! They're really helpfull.
I have SUCH huge people issues that the idea of that much interaction feels equal to that final push if you know what I mean.
This last incident has messed with my head so much I feel disoriented and sort of like I don't know what's real so the outpatient idea might work for me so Milesback I *really* appreciate that information.
Thanks everyone =)
deleted_user
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I was in for a short stay of 5 days in which time I was properly diagnosed and medicated. The trigger was I was on the edge of a complete breakdown and it all rested on an approval or denial of my SMI case which in Arizona is life long Mental Health care with all the doctors that see people with other insurances but its paid for by the state... I was denied... Improper dx and lack of documentation.

Well my stay opened my case back up and a proper dx was made and now I have coverage and I am so thankful. Hospital stays can be good if you make the most out of them and tell them what you need to continue on your own so if they can make it happen they can sure try to
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Was Hospitalized three times in a year.....Suicidal once and suicide attempts twice, longest stay was 1 month...felt crappy and suicidal for the next 4 years with constant tweaking of the meds and adding Meds. My family is not close and my behavior burned a lot of bridges and relationships so i had no visitors when in there. Had to ask strangers to get me stuff like cigs.
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I was hospitalized in 1991 when I was first put on meds for anxiety and depression. In 2002 I suddenly stopped being able to sleep and after a week I was suicidal and almost psychotic, non of the drugs worked so I had 12 sessions of ECT with minimal memory loss. The same thing happened to me in 2003 but I've been stable since then. Each hospitalization was a unique experience and I met some of my best friends while an inpatient.
Marilyanna
Marilyanna
I have been in the hospital 4 times. Each time I got there on my own. My therapist clls hospitals motels without pools. But they reall can help and I would rather go and speend th night then go out patient. Whatever programs they have going on while youre there try to enterr in. AAnd now I know I;ll get crap for this remark but cogntive therapy sucks not worth the money.
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