I think so.

I can speak from my own experience, when I get too deep in the hole.... I get actively suicidal and yes, I run like hell to the hospital and check myself in for safety. Thank God, it doesn't happen that often any more but it did when I was first dx.

I tend to believe that when people think it's time to check in , it probably is. Most of us don't raise our hand to check in just for something to do.

Checking in for a short while could get the opportunity to adjust meds much more agressively than able to do on an outpatient basis. My feeling is, if you think you may need to check in soon, do it sooner rather than later, maybe you can get to feeling better before the next holiday.

it sounds like maybe you should go. it's not the end of the world to go.

you wrote "I need help". That means you NEED HELP. Go to the hospital, we can talk to you in the mean time, but go.

I really appreciate your responses, I am mostly always alone and it is difficult enough to feel this way alone but to feel this way and take care of a toddler, I can't take it ..

you are NOT alone.

I really needed to hear that becasue that is what I feel alone...I know I gotta go, I don't wanna go but I can't do this for much longer ..thank you so much for being with me

we are here with you ...

do you know who to contact to help you get to the hospital?

you usually can just show up! or call and see if there is a bed for you.

pack a bag with you know, non-metal and non-string and non-anything things (haha)

bring a good book.

unfortunately not only do i feel alone i really am all alone with the baby.. so I just can't go right now.. and i do know the drill no strings, metal, i had the nerve to wanna shave my legs last time... I know stupid.. but i will call my doc in the morn and he will tell me what to do , if they have a bed for me.

good. yr doctor can help. and maybe s/he can suggest something about how to get someone to watch the baby...?

is there any family, or a friend near by that you trust with that?

if i were there i'd do it for you!!

no there is no one near by and my "husband" is still working and it's 2am... but I can get my friend or mom to come and stay for a few hopefully to take care of him.. and your offer is so kind thank you, I can't stop crying..

i know that place where you can't stop crying. it's very painful, but it doesn't last forever.

can't your husband do anything to help with the baby??

friend or mom sounds like a good idea. moms are reliable with that, usually.

my husband mostly works.. that's what he mostly does... which is part of the problem...

I am sorry you are in such a difficult place, and your husband works so much.

I agree, that is probably a BIG part of the problem.

And typically, men who work so much do it to avoid dealing with other issues, and then blame it on the woman for having emotional difficulties....don't take or listen to that BS if it is the case.

starfish ... those words could have come right out of my mouth.

don't let anybody else blame you for your difficulties.

how are you holding up?