I was diagnosed with BP when I was 16. I am now 33. I have been through major ups and downs and I don't know how much more I can take. I have thyroid issues on top of it (had it removed a few months ago). I am so down and feel like a complete idiot. It was a big deal just for me to get up and get on the computer. I feel like I am wearing my boyfriend and my family down even though they tell me I'm not. I feel like a helpless baby. I can't even work or get anything done around the house. I am useless. I am trying to fight it and ignore the thoughts to end it all. I have a beautiful little 5yrold girl who deserves so much better than a messed up loser of a mom. I am out of strength and don't know how much more I can push myself. My doc just changed meds and I know I am supposed to be patient and wait for them to work but I don't know how much longer I can do this. HOW DO YOU DO IT? Please help
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