Well, I have been home from the hospital for a couple of hours now. I have had a very relaxing day. I found out that one of my meds was dropping my sodium levels so low that I was at risk of a heart attack or stroke. This is possible the cause of my depression downfall. I have been taken off of that med and put on Lithium 900mg and Trazadone 50mg. So far they seem to be helping out. It has only been a few days but I can already see a difference. I still think about cutting but I am able to control the urges alot better. I have a bit better of an outlook on life. The hospital I was in was really nice and they let you smoke which was awesome! The staff was really nice and helpful as well. I felt like I was in a safe and comfortable environment. I told my mom that if I have to go back to the hospital, I hope that I go there. I am just taking it day by day, hour by hour right now. We'll see what happens. Well, I just wanted to let you guys know I was back and doing better. It's a daily battle that I know I will eventually win. It's just going to take time. Thank you all for your prayers and support! It means alot to me.
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