after two weeks of it I am now getting six or seven hours sleep without any sleeping aids at all. I am much more relaxed, have reduced xanax from 4/day to 2/day. I am also on a different pain patch BuTrans which seems to keep my pain at a more steady level which also makes me more relaxed which is good too. Of course I am absoutely revelling in the joy of having my house back to myself and the ensuing peace and quiet and that is huge. suicidal ideation comes and it goes nd I get through it. Mo is a great help, she's lovely and warm to rub and seems to know when to just lie quietly beside me. a good therapy dog it seems. I am looking forward to discussing it all with pdoc at our next appointment.
I cut about six weeks ago in an actual suicide failule = still sore - no sympathy expcted for self inflicted shit. right now though i just want to cut from head to toe for relief. i wish i could be done with this.
Happy Thanksgiving from CanadaI am so very grateful for my DS friends.... The support and friendship that I have found on here is simply amazing and I thankful for all of you....Big squishy hug....xohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re5qJTfZWJw