I finally bought a book (New Hope for People with Bipolar) that, combined with a recent talk with my therapist has brought me closer to acceptance. I crashed and burned coming off Wellbutrin and have been given the go ahead to begin again. Anyone have success taking a combo of Wellbutrin and Lamictal? I pray this is the combo that works. Being told it may take a while to find really sucks!. Oh, how a long for a quick fix! Dr. said I have reactive depression. Anyone here of that term? Reading and listening to the Dr. is good but, I also feel the need to hear it from people who have been there. An honest look at my past has been painful. I am ashamed of my behavior. I have really mistreated some people. I mean down right mean! It's a wonder I didn't get fired from my job. (worked there for 10 yrs before quitting to be a sahm). The dark moments of dispair after my daughter was born. I misused Ativan (of course justifying it to myself) I really could have stopped breathing in the night taking high doses and adding Benadrly...) How stupid and selfish! This is so strange. My moods have been out of control. Rational to COMPLETELY irrational. It's easy to deny when I have such moment of clarity. (until the next wave hits). Thanks for listening.
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