I know that everyone here knows what I mean when I say racing thoughts. The ones that go through your head, on a loop, for days on end. A broken record-type thing. You go to sleep at night listening to them, and wake up in the morning and they're still there! Sometimes, I wonder if I hear them all night long, hidden somewhere in my subconscious. "Silly, stupid, useless, little girl...silly, stupid, useless, little girl..." I wake up in the morning, and my eyes will be swollen shut because I cried all night when I was sleeping. I've tried explaining what it's like to friends and family, but they don't understand. They talk to me eternally about the power of positive thought, and I realize that they just don't get that, for me at least, positive thought is impossible sometimes. When you're in the deepest parts of the depression, and turning over in bed is a chore, altering your entire thought pattern is so daunting. And if it was so easy to make everything all better with positive thoughts, wouldn't I have tried that by now? And I have tried. I've read the books, and "put things out into the universe." I even tried to channel my energy once, whatever that means. And all to no avail. So I'm putting it out to all of you (the people who really get what I mean): how do you handle your racing thoughts-the good and the bad?
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