Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Help me understand

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I haven't done this in years. I was doing SO good, then something triggered me and I sliced my arm in several places. I was in deep depression all day today, couldn't even get out of bed. I have everything I could ever want, why do I do this? Even on meds. Does anyone else have these extreme bipolar flare-ups even if they are stabilized for a while? My boyfriend was very supportive, he got me through so I didn't have to go to the hospital. I am rambling, not in my right mind right now, but for those of you who do this, what triggers you? Do you feel any pain? I don't at all, it dulls the emotional hell, too. Please tell me about your experience with this, I just want to see if there is anyone out there I can relate to.
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That's just it. It dulls the emotional hell. You cut, you control the emotional hell you speak of. It makes sense. You really answered your own question in your post. Totally cool. Impressive!
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I used to have the same type episodes as you and I was medicated and there really was no need for me to be in any turmoil. I would cut just so i could feel something or i would cut so that i didn't feel the pain i was feeling..I needed a release and I was in control of that release...I understand...thank goodness it's been years since those days though
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For me I count pills it also dulls the emotional pain and gives me control!!!

I can't sut I have enough scars on my body don't want anymore.
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the extremes, well it's jus the nature of the disease.
you have to try and think of something else to have as a crutch instead of distructive behavior when you need to dull the pain like that. i wish i had a good example of something for you. i draw/write until my fingers feel like they're going to fall off, but that's not for everyone.
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In lieu of cutting I used to sit in a corner and rock and rock for hours..at least that didn't hurt anyone
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