i don't know whether it was over stimulation or what but i am nerved up to the roof. i took 2mg of ativan and a benedryl and it hasn't helped. i can't take a xanax on top of this because kidlets friend is over and i have to drive her home at 7p. i am a nervous as a cat. had a good morning and early afternoon it all went south from there.the 45 minute drive from the barn to home about put me over the edge. i wanted to roll and flip the car over but thought of the girls and couldn't do it. joe and his poison ivy are coming home tonight and that is about to throw me over the edge too. i can't do it, i am trying to hold it together and all i do is go in the kitchen where the kids can't see me and pace. i can't do this i can't hold it together i swear to god i am going to lose it.
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