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I am adult learning to handle my triggers and I just have to say that I am really pissed that my Dad cannot see the pain I am in. I am allowing what he just said to me today to build upon what he said and did last weekend.
And that does not even come across as angry as I am.
He is a realtor and can find time for his needs, but not mine. It's just not in him.
He can find time to go to an f-in football game, to go to his house he is re-habbing, a house that is near mine, and he can find time to show houses that are in and around near my house, but he can't find the friggin time to stop by my house.
Narcissist pig.
No wonder I wanted to commit suicide four months after having a nervous breakdown. No wonder I feel like I do not have anyone in my life. No wonder I had to turn to G**. No wonder I am working so much on my relationship with me. I will never, ever, never get their attention (Mom/Dad). I would not be in this position, now, if I had ever HAD their attention.
MY PARENTS ARE NOT THERE FOR ME! Can I hear myself yet? Can I get it through my thick emotional, wanting, wishing, sad, upset, wishful skull??
Help! Talk to me SOMEBODY!
And that does not even come across as angry as I am.
He is a realtor and can find time for his needs, but not mine. It's just not in him.
He can find time to go to an f-in football game, to go to his house he is re-habbing, a house that is near mine, and he can find time to show houses that are in and around near my house, but he can't find the friggin time to stop by my house.
Narcissist pig.
No wonder I wanted to commit suicide four months after having a nervous breakdown. No wonder I feel like I do not have anyone in my life. No wonder I had to turn to G**. No wonder I am working so much on my relationship with me. I will never, ever, never get their attention (Mom/Dad). I would not be in this position, now, if I had ever HAD their attention.
MY PARENTS ARE NOT THERE FOR ME! Can I hear myself yet? Can I get it through my thick emotional, wanting, wishing, sad, upset, wishful skull??
Help! Talk to me SOMEBODY!
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
im sorry that you feel so alone. *hugs*
I imagine telling him how i feel and it just depresses me bcs he is so narcissistic that he has every excuse in the book to deny what I say and it's just a useless argument bcs he is just so in denial about who he is and what he makes everyone think he is to me in this world.
I know the truth of his emotioanl abuse and abandonment.
It's near impossible to describe it, and 'saners' just don't get it either way.
I offer my support to you, and hope that your parents soon see that you are hurting and need their help.
Please do not let people like this get the end of you. They don't deserve a caring person who wants to do the best that one can do with the hand that one is dealt.
So i have to get in the habit of constantly reminding myself of my situation with him and them and it is just so challenging, especially when society shows these hunky-dorey relationships of families. And especially when my Dad lies to people and tells them he is there for me when he hasn't come by my house to see me when he knows i have been in the hospital and on meds.
They are just weak.
So it's alway well for us to re-evaluate our expectations and our responsibilities. First, nobdy else can see our pain. Sometimes we even hide it from ourselves. We have to assume resposnsibility for ourselves since it becomes very clear that we can't depend on anyone else. That's not narcissistic, it's just reality. Love yourself and do the best you can taking care of yourself and expect little from others. Therapists make a good living dealing with problems like this, and it can take time to reach a healthy level of understanding and action. I'm still working on it.
Take care of yourself and often relationships mend because when we're having nervous breakdowns and feeling suicidal lots of people who love us don't know what to do...
He turns the tables. Telling me i am ungrateful because he's alive.
there have been times that I have not spoken to him becasue it is what is healthy for me. Then he begs and pleads to knwo what he needs to do to get back into my life and I know this is just part of his act and I resist allowing him in, but when I was suicidal and not thinking straight, I thought I heard him differently.
But now, months later, he's the same ol' same ol' and I am just realizing this.