i have no idea where im going... i am still looking for a job after two months and i am tired of the anxiety of looking and interviewing.... otherwise, i think my life would be quiet and okay and what im used to it being

".. I am a worm and no man.."
I feel this way alot. I try to think of what has gone right and make a list of goals and dreams. If you don't have any come up with some. Get some sunshine and pet a dog!

Ahhhh, isn't bipolar disorder nice? I rapid cycle and am in that spot sometimes two times a day. Yesterday was a bad day, today is different. I havn't been up long enough to get all screwed up.

Depending on how long you end up in depression heaven you may need to call your pdoc. A divorce is considered a big thing.

I've been divorced twice and a divorce is a painful experience that must be grieved over. I don't trust anybody who goes through one and claims that it was nothing.
I consider things like this to be part of what we work on and keep working on, because we never can say that it's time to stop working now! I wish you the best.

This is the existential question. I feel you, we all face this at one point or another in our lives... Even Normies get this one... we just feel it deeper...

yeah, what they said

You say you feel numb. The divorce and the anticipation of a new residence can be overwhelming under the best of circumstances. (having bipolar could just accentuate this) I would think you're feelings could almost be expected. I hope things level out for you and that you'll be feeling better about things soon.

Sounds like you've had a lot of changes in your life at one time. That may be what the problem is. Change is hard even if it is positive.

small part of the universe...
You are not small..
you are the universe! And you can do anything.

That being said...I don't know where I'm going either ..

Somewhere someone made up a list of awful, bad nasty things that can radically screw up your life the top one number 10 is devasting Fire. numerber 9 is deathe of an immediate family member, Number 8 is divorce even ambiicle divorce, number 7 is moving etc etc so give yourself a big break.

You actually are just a small piece of this universe. I'ts ok to know that. Just do what's infront of you to the best of your ability. Can't compare you or your efferts to any one elses.

well, now that the divorce is over, thisisyourfirst sunday since the divorce.

you are grieving a loss. Prior to this time you had been living with the IDEA of the divorce. Now you have the divorce. Now you have feelings of grief. It's OK. Use them to their fullest! Cry! Laugh! then Cry again! Journal. Go to the spa. get pampered. lookup Elizabeth Kubler Ross and her stages of grief.

You are grieving.
Take extra vitamin C and zinc to build your immune system right now. Your body has been holding on, waiting for the divorce and now it is here so your body might let go and release and so you need to boost your immune system. I hope this helps. Vitamin C! Zinc! Fruits galore - and lots of water!