I had a good weekend, a wee bit hyper, but good. for some reason only slept 3 hours last night so I did a lot of laundry in the middle of the night. When I woke up this morning I was really cranky and had body shakes. I still kept going though and decided to wash down the walls in my bedroom, then I decided I should just rip the walls down because they are ugly and paneled (I have ripped things and walls apart in my house before and my husband comes home to a nice surprise). Then I thought I am just thinking this way because I have only slept 10 or 13 hrs. in the past 4 days and I just need to get some sleep. So... I took some xanax to help me get that sleep and slept from 12-2:30. When I woke I could just feel myself going down. My son came home from school and I just don't feel like doing anything with him and I feel horrible about it. I am just sinking, sinking, sinking.
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