So I'm going to jump right into it. I just found this group and I'm hoping if I share my thoughts and feelings with others who are going through the same as me, that I won't feel so alone.
I was diagnosed with type 2 Bipolar Disorder sometime in 2019. I've had this chemical imbalance for most of my life but it didn't become real until after I was diagnosed. I've lost friends, family, jobs, relationships etc. because of this disorder. I impulsively quit my job today, and I really need a job. I have a lot of bills, and I hate myself for quitting but at the same time I just couldn't handle it anymore. My co-workers talked to me like I was a child. My boss always had an attitude because I was so unreliable. Talking with my boyfriend didn't help because he told me I needed to be more reliable. How am I suppose to do that when I constantly feel trapped? I continuously feel the need to Run. I don't even know why?
It's like I take 2 steps forward and get shoved 10 steps back. I try really hard to be a "glass half full" kind of person but I always get anxiety when the cup gets emptier.
it's like living on a roller coaster that won't slow down, or stop for that matter. I rely on cigarettes to keep me sane, thankfully I haven't picked up any other habits, (no judgment to anyone that has or currently does).
Anyway, I'm a wreck, and I just want my mind to slow down enough for me to grasp my life. I just want to make my mom proud, and take care of her. She's been my rock through all this. Every appointment, medicine problem, or just any kind of mental breakdowns.
she's my reason.
I just wanna know that I'm not the only person who keeps royaly screwing up her life?
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I feel like I am doing okay. Not well, not bad, but in the middle. It can be hard for me to accept, but feeling in the middle is okay. I am just trying to enjoy the small moments.I think I am stopping therapy soon and my parents don't even know I'm doing it. I don't know if I should tell them. I also am worried that the insurance bill will show them anyways.I recently talked to a friend who is...