Wow, got an email from my stbxh(soon to be ex husband)the other day...he finally took my advice and went to the doctor and found out he has bipolar... I've been telling him for months now that I thought he was and that he needed to go. He only went because he's hoping that'll help him get me back. It's not going to but I'm glad he's getting help now...2 bipolar people being married...it didn't work before and I don't see it working now. Although it does make me sit back and think that maybe now that he's on medication things might be different??? But at the same time I still can't trust him. Even though I kinda knew he was bipolar, me being bipolar myself I saw the signs there...a part of me feels like I should have stayed after him even more, kept on about him going to the doctor, not let him put it off like he has. I feel in a way I failed him as a wife because I KNEW he was bipolar and I feel like I should have done more sooner to get him help. Ahhh!!! My head is spinning now, trying to figure everything out... I can't go back to him for numerous reasons, but that doesn't make this any easier on me to understand and deal with...We made it 5 years, guess that is truly a feat.
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