I desperately need some advice. Here't the deal. I foolishly stopped taking my lithium a month ago and everything seemed fine at first, but after about two weeks I spiraled very quickly out of control. During an episode my husband and I got in a huge fight that he actually started, but I finished it. I said some horrible things to him and he's been sleeping in the guest room ever since. I didn't say anything about things for a while, waiting for him to bring it up. Finally two nights ago I told him how sorry I was and how much I loved him and wanted him back in our bed. I basicly begged my husband to love me. He said he had to think about it. My heart is breaking terribly and I don't know what to do. Yes, I screwed up but he said some pretty mean things too and he is bipolar as well, so I have stood by him through mean episodes and depressions he's had. When you basicly beg your husband to love you and he says he has to think about it, it destroys a part of your soul and I don't know whether to smack him or keep trying to fix this relationship. What should I do? I'm so lost and hurting so badly. Does anyone have some good advice to lead me in the right direction?
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