The weirdest thing happened to me yesterday and I am wondering if it's normal. I called someone who I knew was a trigger because he's suppose to do our counter tops and has blown us off for 3 months. He "WAS" also a friend. Just hearing his name is a trigger and I made the mistake of calling him and leaving him a wtf message. Then I went to the grocery store, put my groceries in the trunk and then totally lost my shit. I cried all the way home and by the time I got home I was hysterical. I wanted to overdose, hurt myself, I was soooo out of control. I was hyperventilating and called a good friend to get me off the cliff. I called my shrink but he never returned my called. I finally talked to a nurse and she said I could take an anti-anxiety med. So I took 2 and a valium. That+ my friend helped calm me down but the feeling was very strong and lasted a full hour. How could a trigger be postponed? I called my trigger once I got home, still sobbing and told him I hope he was satisfied and for him to have all correspondence with my husband from now on. I thought I was "adjusted" but yesterday totally blind sided me.
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