I just thought I would do a little writing this morning about nothing in general. The baby is up at 6 am she wont go back to sleep again I feel ok. I hope it last. I have been having bad spells three to four nights a week now.The medication seems to help but it never stops it completely. I have to go back to the doc on Thursday,not sure if I should go back inpatient,not sure of much of anything anymore.I hate the idea of being away from my baby,but these spells I am having really suck. I could really use a break from my never ending day. My disability wont kick in until at least October.My stress level is topped off. My wife works all the time now. If I am lucky I see her about 8 hours a week. There is no one to help with the baby,who just happens to be going strong with the terrible 2s. I get her to bed at night, and off and on. it hits me these crazy spells, I cant talk, I start shaking,my body aches, and get super paranoid its like my brain just starts misfiring. this lasts up to 4 hours sometimes before I finally go to sleep.I wake in the morning and I am fine again.
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